Whenever I get happy for just a little, something has to knock me down. I have to try and keep on fighting it so that nothing can bring me down and nothing put me in a bad mood. I need to control my emotions, my emotions do not need to control me. Its something that I need to really work on through meditation, reflection, and prayer. I know that I can achieve it, but now its a matter of me really trying to apply myself. i can do this.